Thursday, November 6, 2008

My rollercoaster

How do I even begin? The emotional roller coaster is one that is so difficult to navigate, I feel all aspects of my life falling apart, yet, here I am with 3 wonderful children, healthy and I am overwhelmed. The desire to complete or do anything is non- existent, the emotions of joy, love, happiness I once craved and could see daily do not appear to be anywhere inside me. Here I am walking a road with my three kids, healthy energetic and joyous, and I can hardly force a smile, yet, I yearn to love and embrace them and share in laughter and fun times. The road after treatment is so much harder that the journey, I feel my whole nuclear family falling apart and here me as a mom can not hold things together. I can not complete a project nor look forward to free time with my family; I am determined to conquer this journey as much as we have conquered cancer. My heart and soul ache, but, I know as I have traveled down a road of uncertainty this too will be one I will learn on my Fathers shoulders and be carried through, in a way I am unsure of but, know He will bring back the joy and excitement .

Thursday, October 9, 2008

Beginning a new journey!

The time has come for us to move from our lives of a child with cancer to our family being cancer free and a place for all three kids to be celebrated! I have learned through the trials and miracles, what it is like to be obedient to our Father. I hope to use this site as a way for many to watch the 3 b's grow and of course give mom more grey hair. Our family is precious and the three of them together keep me on my toes and so thankful to be a mom!

Enjoy this site, as I become more educated on blogging, it should be a lot of fun and some videos to follow!